Colton Ryan Cast - Where I'm At Chords

C Em D O-oh O-o-oh G I havent figured out a decent word F To take the lead of the phrase to describe this thought G It's a word with a "dis-" like a thick disorder F A disease, disappointment, disaster, distraught C Disruptive and draining, D F The paint on the walls of my brain is all flakey and peeling away C Foundation is shaking

D Through smiles that im faking F Im achingly trying to get through each day G C D These struggles are backed by the fact that compassion is lacking G C F Like the true definition of real understanding falls flat C G D Theres a sky up above but I see it all shaking and cracking G D Through the cracks I see no answer Em G I dont know where im at N.C.You're probably wondering, "uh why? N.C.Why would you wanna kill yourself?" N.C.Uh that's a great question N.C.It's like I hear this relentless buzzing, and it just gets louder, and louder and LOUBER G As it start to build, you cant look down F Standing off, clench your jaw, you lost sight of normal G Try to stay somewhere safe like your childhood memories F G F Too bad you cant escape the mental thunderstorm G The days on repeat, D Every week with a shrink G F Face-to-face with a doctor whose interest depleted G D Sessions complete with the same stupid question G F All therapists ask without skipping a beat G With zero finesse, D Every shrink has expressed F G Their endorsement of pills that make life less depressing G Addressing my stresses D And pressures G D F Subjectively seems like what doctors might do when theyre guessing Em C D Seventeen years and emotions are scattered and raging Em C Numbing the pain with the pill G Till stabilitys flat F C D But numbing the pain is just dumbing me down, nothings changing G D Im staring blankly at the walls Em G I dont know where im at N.C.And you think! N.C.Getting older will make ALL of this easier. N.C.It doesnt. N.C.Getting older just means more responsibilities. N.C.And more responsibilities, less help. D Em Frustrations turn into a dim-lit light C On in the middle of a room at night G Cant see the little bit of glow, B No Em Wrong or right, no one seems to bother asking C G If we might need a little middle-of-a-road D How could you know? C I guess you had to be there D C I guess you had to be there Em G And that's just where im at F C Always scared of my potential F C Never get how im essential Em G Yeah thats where im at F C Where youre force-fed what they hand you F C Where your friends dont understand you Em G Wrong or right, no one seems to bother asking C D G If we might need a little middle-of-the-road D How could you know Em G Just where im at F C Where your friends dont care about you F C Where theyre better off without you Em G Look at where im at F C Where your mom and dad dont get you F C Try to live but then forget to C Em D Oh O-oh O-o-oh C Em D Oh O-oh O-o-oh C Can you blame me? Em I know this cant be right D I stomach down and no wonder I lost my appetite C They try to save me Em No one keeps me up at night N.C.They think they know whats best for me N.C.But they dont know Em G Where im at! N.C.To sum up, im 17 years old. N.C.I dont know anything about most things but here's what i do know. Em G (Where im at!) N.C.Im a literal piece of wallpaper! N.C.A cog in a wheel in a machine thats irrelevant. Em G (Where im at!) N.C.I have enough anxiety to fill a crater in the moon. And im running out of options. N.C.Or maybe, ive already run out. Em Burnt-down light, up in the attic C So youre up all night G Put out the little bit of glow B So Em Thats just life, thrown in the middle of a C Losing fight, G Stuck but theyre forcing us to grow D So Em Dim-lit light C On in the middle of a room at night G Cant see the little bit of glow B So Em No wrong or right C No one seems to bother asking if we might G Need a little middle-of-the-road D How could you know? C I guess you had to be there N.C.Hi! Im Craig Gilner N.C.I always look like im about to cry N.C.So I move the muscles on my face to make me smile! N.C.And that's my life! Em G Yeah, this is where im at! G Any questions?