Better Off Broken chords by Citizen Soldier

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G
Feeling so anxious, I step in your office
C
Hear, "How was your week? How do you feel "
It's hard to be honest
Em                       D
All I can think about is shutting back down
C
What's wrong with me? I should be better by now
G
You tell me be patient, that it'll be worth it
C
All the suppression, session by session, pulled to the surface
Em                            D
All of the demons through the years I've bottled up
C

But I'm exhausted and the past is too much
C
I'm not ready, it's too heavy
D
I'm not ready
               G
Why is healing so hard?

And why does numb feel like my only friend?
                      D
'Cause when I swallow my scars

Then I don't have to feel it all again
       Em                   D
I'm so tired of tearing the trauma back open
C
Am I better off, better off broken?
G D
G
I don't wanna breathe deep, I'm tired of mindful
C
When even the smallest things in my life are making me spiral
Em                  D
I had no say, inherited a hemorrhaged heart
C
It's so unfair that every day is this hard
G
I wanna be normal for so many reasons
C
Like I'll never have the time that I need for anger and grieving
Em.                   D
Basic functioning's becoming such a chore
C
What would I be like if they'd cared a little more?
C
I'm not ready, it's too heavy
D
Stop pushing me, just let me be empty
               G
Why is healing so hard?

And why does numb feel like my only friend?
                      D
'Cause when I swallow my scars

Then I don't have to feel it all again
       Em                   D
I'm so tired of tearing the trauma back open
C
Am I better off, better off broken?
        C                          D
'Cause fifty minutes every week is not enough for what I need
   Em
To give me evidence, I'll shake my skeletons
  C
I know you say these thoughts are liars
    D
But I don't wanna live this tired
     Em
With very little proof and everything to lose
    C
I'm scared you're getting sick of me
   D
So tell me, honestly
               G*
Why is healing so hard?

And why does numb feel like my only friend?
                      D*
'Cause when I swallow my scars

I don't have to feel
               G
Why is healing so hard?

And why does numb feel like my only friend?
                      D
'Cause when I swallow my scars

Then I don't have to feel it all again
       Em                   D
I'm so tired of tearing the trauma back open
Cm                                 G
Am I better off, better off broken?
                    D
Am I better off broken?
               Em  D
Better off broken

Am I better off, better off broken?