Better Off Broken Chords

G Feeling so anxious, I step in your office C Hear, "How was your week? How do you feel " It's hard to be honest Em D All I can think about is shutting back down C What's wrong with me? I should be better by now G You tell me be patient, that it'll be worth it C All the suppression, session by session, pulled to the surface Em D All of the demons through the years I've bottled up C But I'm exhausted and the past is too much C I'm not ready, it's too heavy D I'm not ready G Why is healing so hard?

And why does numb feel like my only friend? D 'Cause when I swallow my scars Then I don't have to feel it all again Em D I'm so tired of tearing the trauma back open C Am I better off, better off broken? G D G I don't wanna breathe deep, I'm tired of mindful C When even the smallest things in my life are making me spiral Em D I had no say, inherited a hemorrhaged heart C It's so unfair that every day is this hard G I wanna be normal for so many reasons C Like I'll never have the time that I need for anger and grieving Em. D Basic functioning's becoming such a chore C What would I be like if they'd cared a little more? C I'm not ready, it's too heavy D Stop pushing me, just let me be empty G Why is healing so hard? And why does numb feel like my only friend? D 'Cause when I swallow my scars Then I don't have to feel it all again Em D I'm so tired of tearing the trauma back open C Am I better off, better off broken? C D 'Cause fifty minutes every week is not enough for what I need Em To give me evidence, I'll shake my skeletons C I know you say these thoughts are liars D But I don't wanna live this tired Em With very little proof and everything to lose C I'm scared you're getting sick of me D So tell me, honestly G* Why is healing so hard? And why does numb feel like my only friend? D* 'Cause when I swallow my scars I don't have to feel G Why is healing so hard? And why does numb feel like my only friend? D 'Cause when I swallow my scars Then I don't have to feel it all again Em D I'm so tired of tearing the trauma back open Cm G Am I better off, better off broken? D Am I better off broken? Em D Better off broken Am I better off, better off broken?